Maybe I’ll regain the spark and love for writing and return one day, but for now I don’t see that happening any time soon. Deep down, I kinda knew this was coming ever since my hiatus last year, but I just didn’t want to admit to myself that I was really finished. I just haven’t wanted to write in a long, long time. I really had to force myself to finish that one short part and I haven’t touched anything in the month since I finished it honestly.

Unfortunately, things don’t always go the way we want and I only finished one short scene for Kang Mina. I thought that it would be a fun way to end things on my blog and give you all one last thing to bust to on your way out. It was going to be a bunch of idols that I haven’t written before and also a lot of fan favorites of ones that I already have. They were all going to be just interconnected 1k word quickies as a way to write a lot of different idols. I was originally planning on doing an absolutely massive goodbye piece with like 40 idols involved. I’ve written 2k words in the last 2 months and I really had to force myself to write them. I just don’t have the love and creative spark for the craft that I used to that made me want to write. I’m retiring from writing in this community for the foreseeable future.

You all have given me so much love and support throughout the little over two and a half years I’ve been doing this, so I feel guilty but it’s time to stop kidding myself. Been a long time coming now, but I think it’s finally time for me to just admit it.

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